College... Shit.

I'm starting to get caught up in the college frenzy. It seems early to me. It's still over a year and a half before I'll be leaving. For high school, although it was not nearly as big of a deal, I didn't start looking around until the fall of 8th grade, and there were still three or four schools that I wanted check out. It was by no means an easy decision at such an age, and I still didn't even start until less than a year before I left. I have no idea where I'm going, what I want to study, or what colleges I can even get into. It's exciting, but, in a way, scary. This could be one of the biggest decisions of my life. It will determine what direction I set out in. If I have a really shitty experience, it could actually ruin my life. There is still so much further to go before I reach that point, but if I get in where I want to, it could set my life on the right track. As I type this, I'm listening to Staralfur by Sigur Ros. It truly exemplefies my emotion right now. It's timid, yet hopeful.